Laura slammed into the kitchen, chest heaving, her ginger hair up in a bun. Jess had her feet up on the table, carefully applying a new coat of paint to her nails. Tess was at the stove humming to herself as she made stirfry and Brendan was absorbed with his computer. None of them flinched…
Tag: life struggles
Playlist 9 – Impressions, D24
Playlist: Depressed Song 24: Dear Angel of Mine by April Sixth Physical Chest heaving, sweat seeping into her eyes and burning, bloody bruised knuckles, and copper-tinted spit coating her tongue and pooling in her mouth. Barefoot, skin ripped and rubbed out in patches, purple and red and green shins and forearms. Soft to hard spots,…
DPD
Dependence – physical, emotional. Judgment. Chronic. Unsophisticated, genetics distorted. Wish. Environment, submissive. Inadequate, ingratiating, inept. Helpless. Abdicate. Lack, self-effacing. Obsequious. Deny. Subordinate. Deceptive. Avoid. Meek docile mawkish. Self-defeating. Submit. Abuse, intimidation, self-sacrifice. Disconnected, fretful. Vulnerable. Lonely. Engulfed, absorbed, incapable. Masochistic. Obliging, inferior, incompetent. Needy, passive, fear, avoidance, oversensitivity. Not Me. Genetics and predisposition do…
Playlist 9 – Impressions, D20
Playlist: Depressed Song 20: Don’t Wait by Dashboard Confessional Inches Have I ever been truly bare before another person? Completely stripped of all artifice, pretensions, control, and pretty lies? How rarely have I spoken without tempering my words, and tone, and thoughts. Never have I shared the whole of myself with another person, instead I…
Looks Like Home
We pull off the highway and I stare at the overpass in a daze caused by four hours of sleep followed by nine hours on my feet, and a five hour bus trip that I am just now halfway through. I know we are far from Baldwinsville, but for a moment I swear that when…
Interstate 81
Sometimes it feels like 81 stretches from one end of the earth to the other. It is the first part of the path forward to New York City and my future, but it also reaches back to Watertown and my first everythings, and it continues to Fort Drum and wasted second chances. Beyond that are…
Repercussions of a Breakup – Part two
Laura walked through the dairy aisle on autopilot, her mind wrapped up in the latest crisis on the home front. She was staring blankly at the milk display when Jess popped up next to her. “Laur,” Jess called. “Hmm?” Laura turned to see her friend holding out a large container of yogurt. “You should get…
Reprecussions of a Breakup
“According to the doctors I have a protein deficiency. Ever since Paul and I broke up my protein intake has dropped significantly,” Laura explained, frowning as Jess choked on her coffee, Brendan coughed a few times, and Tess looked like she was smothering a smile behind her hand. She watched them for a few more…
Little Gentian 